I don't feel that way at all. Not when autumn breezes hit the air. Not ever. I'm glad ~ no, I'm honored ~ to be with these urchins every day. They are hilarious and curious and fun and they make life interesting. I'm thankful that they have laundry for me to wash, that I can steal a kiss from their dirty faces anytime, and I even don't mind feigning surprise when they jump out at me from behind a door for the umpteenth time. I really like my kids, and I enjoy spending time with them.
This is just a season in my life, and I plan to enjoy it to its fullest. One day soon my children will be grownups, and they won't need me to kiss their boo-boos, or button their pants or cut up their meat. They won't ask me to snuggle them while they fall asleep, and they'll figure out how to make their own sheets smell April fresh. They'll brush their teeth without my prompting, and they'll never leave their wet towels on the floor, because they will understand how expensive carpet is.
My house will one day be clean and quiet. I'll be able to talk on the phone as long as I want. I won't step in sticky spots on my kitchen floor, and I will sleep late if I want to. But that won't be a better season, just a different one. I just can't imagine ever wishing away these happy, exuberant, noisy days of my children's childhoods, simply because I'm a little exhausted. Ok, a lot exhausted. But exhausted in a really, really good way.
I'm thankful that I get to be there when they lose a tooth or when their stomach hurts. I'm glad I'm the one they tell their secrets to, and that I'm the one to serve them lunch. I like knowing what games they like, and I enjoy being the one to model good sportsmanship when they beat me soundly, even though I was trying to win. I like practicing spelling words and doing math flashcards, and listening to them recite memory verses. I like our bedtime routine, and I enjoy listening to them
I'm really glad they can ask me about the important, serious, confusing, sometimes embarrassing things about life. And I'm so happy I'm actually with them every day, so that we can talk about those things. I'm glad it's me they talk to, and not someone else. I'm so thankful we get to pray together several times per day.
Our society seems to be under the impression that our main job as parents is to find someone else to manage our kids for most of our waking hours. If that is our goal, why did we become parents in the first place? If we hand off our kids every morning and sign them up for afternoon and evening clubs and activities and then drop them at sports tournaments all weekend, where is the parenting in that? That would make me feel like a manager or a chauffeur, perhaps, but not a parent.
Maybe there are other moms out there who actually enjoy spending time with their kids. Maybe it's just that all the moms who love taking care of their kids are so busy having fun that they haven't taken the time to speak up. Well, I'm on the record now. Call me weird ~ I like my kids, and this full-time mom job is the best gig going.